Sleep has been difficult to find lately. There are so many things going through my mind. Then you throw in the leg pains and stomach aches into the equation.
First off I wonder if I will ever get a secure job using my degrees that I spent six years earning. This past school year was one of the best positions I've had since starting my teaching career. I absolutely loved working with the Early Childhood kiddos!! I know working with little kiddos is my passion and dream. Unfortunately, the school district had to release many teachers and aides. I have put out numerous applications with only one interview and did not receive the position. I continue to apply daily and hope there is a position out there for me next year.
My second passion and dream: be a mom! Fulfilling this dream has been a long journey. After my surgery in July, the doctor told us to start trying in November. Here we are in June after many failed rounds of Clomid and one failed round of IUI. We decided to move forward with IVF as our last chance before losing insurance through work.
On Sunday, I will start taking my injectables. I'm nervous and excited all in one. Even though we have shared with family, I am finding this to be a very lonely process. Nobody can relate to my situation and experiences. It's not bad enough to have two miscarriages but now having unexplained infertility complicates things even more.
My emotions have been all over lately. I knew this was going to be an emotional journey but it's all hitting me really hard. So don't mind me if I act out of sorts!
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